She is Not The Addiction

She is not the Addiction. The Addiction is not her. She is a beautiful, generous, and loving woman. She has wants and needs.

The Addiction is not the person that she is. It's separate with It's own powerful wants and desires.

She's just a puppet doing It's bidding. It pulls the strings. It dictates her actions and her words.

It wants nothing more than to be fed and to be fed and to be fed.

Refuse It and It throws up a fast moving slide show of all of It's sins to demonstrate that she is a horrible person and that she is the Addiction. It lied, It cheated, and It hurt her most precious people. She believes It's lie. She believes that she is the Addiction.

Her self loathing is mirrored in the eyes of others as they look at her with judgment and disappointment.

Her body betrays her. It craves the Addiction and punishes her for not giving in to It. It shakes and sweats and vomits and the pain is sharp and endless.

It takes her to the depths of hell then promises her that she will feel better if she'll just feed It. It beats her down physically, emotionally, and spiritually. She has no strength left to fight It. Desperate for the promise that It offers, she feeds It again.

And she hates herself.